How in the…
How in the world have I been able to blog as often as I use to? I can’t figure it out . What am I doing different but I have no time. Granted at night I am trying to stay off the computer for my kids sake but I wish it was all that reason. I have been very social and tonight am very happy to be home. Not just social myslef with my girls, social with our good friends, and families. It has caught up to me once again. this is a theme in my life. I am burnt out and tired.
Today Kaylee and I wallowed around being lazy and enjoying the sunny day. It felt nice but there was a lot of things I needed to do for work errands and the house and then I felt stressed and rushed once I got home. Oh well…I will go see Guissepie tomorrow and continue my meditation class. He is so kind to help me.
Some funny events over the last few days were or maybe not so funny. Kaylee told me to watch the movie and pay attention to how they keep both hands on the steering wheel, then she told me she was going to draw two hands on the steering wheel to remind me to keep them on. And finally she said that it feels like a rollercoaster fun ride when I drive. See the theme??? Took the kids to see the Tibetian monks yesterday. Drove all the way to rancho Bernardo. I was really proud of myself to find it. I felt as if I was in another country. Neil said, “you had directions.” I said “I know but they were complicated.” anyways the show was very cool. They did some amazing things. For example ripped a phonebook in half, a brick and threw a pin through a piece of glass and popped a balloon. It was cool.
The weather has been super nice, like Spring. It is suppose to get cold next week. Tomorrow is my parent’s 59th anniversary. Happy Anniversary Mom and Dad. Love you tons. I miss them. Tonight I was to visit but I renegged. I was too tired. I want to slow down but there is a lot of fun stuff to do and I hate to miss that. Gotta exersize that muscle that say’s ,”No.” I was super klutzy today and that always reminds me that I am overloaded and overwhelmed. Lot’s of thoughts going through my head. trying to sort them out. Want to go back to therapy but it is mucho dinero and nobody wants or has much of that these days. I have a friend going through a painful divorce and it is scary and sad to see. Ciao.