Oh My

I guess I need more work at this new blog than I first thought. I have not been able to log on for a few days. so now it is my job to get that down pat and try and remember the meaningful, or funny things that have occured to me and my family in the past few days. Keep in mind that I am fricken tired.

Kaylee has a cough (4) and she was up all night coughing. She has avoided getting sick this winter but this particular cough/cold has been persistant. She was in our bed, which is her new favorite place since she thinks monsters are under her bed. She also realizes how much more comfy our bed is but the problem with a four year older is=when I am making her bed the way ours is, she is soooooooo particular about the blankets on it and how that it is impossible to make it comfy as she likes. surviving three and fours are tough.

You are sort of damned if you do and damned if you don’t. Not to mention Kaylee has been a bit sassy to me lately. I think the fact that she has not felt great is partially to blame. She actually slapped my hand away today. She keeps saying these little phrases that sound really aloof. Today we were painting in the studio and before I got out I asked her to close the door and she said,” I can’t Mom, I will catch ya later and see ya inside?” She is turning in to such a person. She also tells me these stories she sees on Disney that she thinks are so funny but they are very sophisticated for her. She giggles when I am certain she does not know what she is laughing out.

Jac (7) Our little soccer champ, had his last game saturday. He scored three goals and assisted one. He is tickled pink. I will post a pic of him getting his medal. He is dying to start soccer again. He constantly is kicking the ball in the house until I have to make him go outside. “No ball playing in the house!” Just like Mrs. Brady use to say before the kids broke her ugly stone horse.

I think the medicine has been helping Wills a tad but he is still gagging and worrying about that. He is still being difficult towards me. I guess I can discuss that with the doctor when we meet. It defintitely has not been the miraculous change that anyone of us thought would happen. I am still exhausted. Today was a very whiny day all around.

After we all watched Highschool Musical 3, which by the way is hot and so is whatchamacall him. Talent like that blows me away. I wish I had one eighth of that. Anyways I went to the gym and had a much needed sweat and yoga workout. We decided to go to my favorite new spot Rimel’s and it was unpleasant experience all the way. Not because the food was not good but Wills, Jac and Kaylee whined the entire time about going. Neil was pretty good but very tired. I was thinking can’t wait till Monday. I need to figure out how to respond to Wills constant complaining. I want to validate him but it is hard.

When we returned Wills, Kaylee and I painted for a bit. We are all going to work on another painting together like the Golfish. It is tough to give Kaylee a job that she does not make a mess with. I stayed in this afternoon and started cleaning out my closet and donating things after my two friends go through the bags. Ofcourse I found things I forgot about and realized once again for the fourtheenth time in my life, I need nothing, all the while having a complete allergy fit from the dust. Hachooo! I think I must have sneezed eighty times today, no joke. Kaylee told me she talks really cool now. Uh oh, I had to have a little talk to her about how not trying to be cool is cool.

Tomorrow is my good friend Jen’s bday. I am taking her to lunch. I know I gotta stop the lunches but it is birthday season. I have cut back and we have several things we are going to cut back on more. We do have our free weekend to look forward to. I can’t get it in to my sick brain how much we need to not spend and how tough things are for ourselves and everyone. I dont like to go there. I always think things will work out-not sure if that is rose colored glasses optimism or stupidity. I guess I spend more time being happy that way.

Oh the other night for our Mom’s happy hour was fun for a while. at the beginning of the night there were twenty people that I knew all together in one lounge. The problem was they did not know all of eachother so I felt spread thin. I thought my new drink was martinis and I won’t get real drunk on them but apparently that is not the case. ha. It was one of those nights the more I drank the more tired I got and the less personality I had. I think my hormones were in overdrive.

I also told u my selfesteem has been waivering. I watched the dating show,”The millionaires club.” She talks about how every guy in LA won’t date a woman over forty and if she has kids. Well that just pissed me off-so much that I wanted to write in to the station . I know many of those men change their minds when they meet the right one, but the ignorance of it all. I guess La is the shallow pit of the world. That just send a lot of fear in myself about aging and not being as attractive. Today I kept looking at myself and thinking “pretty cute.” ha…….I have been doing tons of yoga and pilates so I feel that my body is leaning out, and not drinking or eating as much.

My Aunt Shirley had another stroke. She is my father’s sister. My niece said she is feeling bad, sad and sick of getting older. My heart felt sick and so much empathy for her that I had a hard time separarting that was and is not happening to me. Hmm, what else? I guess time for me to read and go to sleep. I have been reading a lot of the paper, listening to stimulating talk radio and tv and it feels good as if I am nourishing a thirsty sponge. I likie I likie…