God bless Robbie

by Amy Cubbison on May 27th, 2009

WE JUST CAME BACK FROM ROBBIE’S MEMORIAL. HE IS THE TEN YEAR OLD BOY THAT WAS IN WILLIAM’S CLASS AND WAS HIT BY A CAR, AND KILLED. HE WAS ON A MOTOR SKOOTER AND NOW I AM COMPLETELY FEARFUL OF MY KIDS GETTING HURT ON THEIR SKOOTERS OR BIKES. I GUESS I COULD USE THAT FEAR TO WATCH OVER MY CHILDREN MORE IN THAT ARENA. I HAVE A FAITH IN GOD THAT IS STRONGER IN SOME AREAS THAN OTHERS AND FOR SOME REASON I DON’T TEND TO WORRY AB OUT MY CHILDREN GETTING HURT THAT WAY, SO MUCH, OR I USE TO NOT……..

THE CEREMONY WAS TOUCHING AND HEART WRENCHING AT THE SAME TIME. TO SEE HIS MOTHER SUFFER AND HIS SISTER CRY WAS NOT EASY. I LOST A FRIEND IN HIGHSCHOOL WHEN I WAS SEVENTEEN AND THAT WAS A TRAGIC EXPERIENCE. I THINK AT SEVENTEEN ONE IS A BIT OLDER AND PROBABLY BETTER AT RECEIVING AND COMPREHENDING SUCH NEWS. THEN AGAIN WILLS WAS NOT SUPER CLOSE TO THE BOY. AT ANYTIME THIS TYPE OF NEWS IS SCARY AND TRAMATIC BUT LIFE-THERE ARE NO GUARANTEES. I SENT OUT A MUSHY LETTER TO THOSE THAT I CARE FOR AND THOSE I LOVE. I AM SURE SOME OF THOSE ARE REALLY SICK OF MY LETTERS BUT IT HELPS ME PROCESS MY THOUGHTS AND BE ACCOUNTABLE FOR MY ACTIONS. I DONT’ CARE, LIFE IS SHORT, FRAGIL AND I DO LOVE A LOT AND EVERY MOMENT IS SENTIMENTAL AND MEANINGFUL TO ME, OR ATLEAST THAT IS MY GOAL. ANYWAYS MY NEW FAVORITE SONG IS LIVE EACH DAY AS IT WAS YOUR LAST BY MY FAV. NICKLEBACK. I WOULD LOVE TO MEET THE SINGER/SONGWRITER FOR THAT BAND BECAUSE HE SEEMS AS SENSITIVE AS A SOUL AS I AM. SO TONIGHT I THANK GOD FOR MY BEAUTIFUL, HEALTHY AMAZING KIDS AND PRAY TO GOD TO KEEP THEM SAFE, MAKE TIME GO BY SLOWLY SO WE CAN SAVOR EVERY MINUTE, EVEN THE TOUGH ONES, AND THAT WE WILL ALL PRAY FOR ROBBIE IN HEAVEN, REUNITED WITH HIS MOTHER, WHOM HE LOST AT THE AGE OF ONE. OH AND KUDOS FOR ME OR NEIL AND ME-YES I HAVE TO MAKE THIS ABOUT ME A BIT CUZ IT IS MY FRICKEN BLOG-ANYWAYS-THE PRINCIPLE OF THE SCHOOL CAME UP TO ME AND SAID THAT WE MUST HAVE DONE SOMETHING SO RIGHT BECAUSE WILLIAM WAS SO SUPPORTIVE IN TALKING TO THE CHILDREN ABOUT ROBBIE’S DEATH AND HIS FAITH. SHE SAID HE IS SO KIND, SENSTIVIVE, LOVING AND WAS VERY HELPFUL AND INSIGHTFUL TO ALL OF THE OTHER CHILDREN IN HIS CLASS AND THE SCHOOL. I WAS VERY CHOKED UP AND HAPPY AND JOKED THAT OKAY MAYBE BEING ON TIME IS NOT THE MOST IMPORTANT THING, IF WE CAN RAISE A SWEET,LOVING SOUL…………….

WENT TO THERAPY TODAY AND LOVE IT. I HAVE HAD SOME EPHIPHANIES OR TONS OF EPHIPHANIES, THAT I WANT TO SHARE BUT AT THIS TIME, I AM SUPER TIRED AND LONGING FOR THE COMPANIONSHIP OF MY BUBBLE BATH, BOOK AND COZY BED. OH AND KISSES TO AND FROM MY KIDS-ESPECIALLY KAYLEE WHO I COULD KISS TWENTY FOUR SEVEN AND BITE HER LITTLE LEGS. ALL I CAN SAY TO SUMARIZE IS THAT GOD IS IN MY HEART AGAIN, I FEEL HIM. I ALSO CAN SAY THAT GOD IS PUTTING TRUTH IN FRONT OF MY FACE CONSTANTLY AS TO HAVE ME WORK ON MY BOUNDRIES AND BUILD THAT MUSCLE. IT IS SCARY AND EXCITING AT THE SAME TIME. I AM IN A LEARNING STAGE AND LOVING IT. NOW IF YOU ASKED ME THIS LAST WEEK, IWAS READY FOR THE LOONEY FARM. NOT REALLY BUT SUPER EMOTIONAL AND NOT VERY STABLE WHICH I NOW ATTRIBUTE TO LIFE CIRCUMSTANCES AND AN ERROR FROM MY DOCTOR AND THE MEDICINE HE GAVE ME.

OH AND MUST NOT FORGET, ON MY JOURNEY OF LATE, I CLEANED AND ORGANIZED ALMOST MY ENTIRE HOUSE. I MOVED FURNITURE. LET ME TELL YOU SHOPPPING AND EXERSIZE IS OVERRATED. HA. I WISH BUT IT FELT GREAT. OFCOURSE WILLS DOES NOT LIKE ANYTHING TO EVER CHANGE PLACES, BUT FOR THE MOST PART THE KIDS LIKE IT. IT WAS CATHARTIC AND KAYLEE WAS SO EXCITED AND KEPT ON SAYING ‘THIS IS SPLENDID,’ THAT IS SPLENDID, AND ‘I LOVE THE WORD SPLENDID, DONT’ YOU.?” SO I GUESS NEXT TIME I AM DOWN AND OUT, JUST CLEAN, MOVE AND REARRANGE. I AM GETTING THE CONNECTION NOW.

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