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ONCE AGAIN LOTS TO SAY AND WANT TO BE LACONIC. THAT WORD NEIL TAUGHT ME YEARS AGO AND I HAVE NEVER FORGOTTEN IT. LACONIC MEANS SAYING A LOT USING FEW WORDS. THAT IS NOT ME BUT TRYING TO BE. I AM ALSO USING CAPS NOW BECAUSE IT IS MUCH EASIER SINCE MY KIDS SPILLED SOMETHING STICKY ON MY KEYBOARD AND THE CAPS LOCK STICKS. ANOTHER DAY IN THE LIFE OF AN UNORGANIZED MOTHER.

FIRST OFF, SAD TO SAY THAT WILLS CLASSMATE WAS HIT BY A CAR AND DIED. AS YOU CAN IMAGINE THIS HAS SHOCKED AND SADDENED THE COMMUNITY BEYOND BELIEF. I FEEL SO MANY FEELINGS FOR EACH PERSON INVOLVED. EVERYTIME I HEAR OF A TRADGEDY, IT PUTS ME BACK IN THE PLACE OF REALITY AND WHERE AND HOW I WANT TO LIVE MYLIFE. I MAY BE REDUNDANT AND SLOW AT MAKING ALL OF THE NECESSARY CHANGES. I DO REALIZE THAT I HAVE MADE SOME CHANGES AND I CAN BE SLOWER THAN THE NEXT AT REPEATING MYSELF UNTIL I CONVINCE MYSELF OF THE CHANGES. BUT I KNOW IN THE PAST WHEN I REPEAT SOMETHING  A LOT THAT I OFTEN END UP COMMITTING TO IT EVENTULLY. THEY ARE HAVING A MOURNING, DEATH SPECIALIST OR WHATEVER YOU CALL IT COME TO THEIR SCHOOL ON TUESDAY.

NOT SURE WHAT IS GOING ON WITH MY LITTLE ANGEL BUT SHE IS A WHINING ALL DAY LONG. I CAN’T TAKE IT. THEN YESTERDAY SHE GOT IN TO A LITTLE ARGUMENT WITH WILLS AND SHE TURNED IN TO A MINI SATAN. JOKING BUT HER VOICE GOES DOWN SEVERAL OCTIVES. IT IS JUST SORT OF FUNNY, THAT SHE HAS ALWAYS BEEN SUCH AN ANGEL AND SO EASY AND NOW SHE IS GETTING A TEMPER . I JUST HOPE IT IS A RARE TEMPER. WILLIAM SHOWED ME HOW KAYLEE SQUEEZED HIS FACE AND IT WAS ROUGH.

FRIDAY JAC WOKE UP WITH PINK EYE AND I HAD TO TAKE HIM TO THE DOCTOR’S. I HEARD WILLIAM SCREAMING -YES WE KNOW WILLS HAS THAT TEMPER AND SCREAMING DOWN PAT-AT JAC THAT HE DOES NOT HAVE PINK EYE. GOD FORBIB SOMEONE BE SICK AND GET TO MISS SCHOOL WITHOUT ALL OF THEM MISSING IT. JAC AND I ENDED UP HAVING A NICE DAY TOGETHER. WE WENT TO LUNCH, HELD HANDS AND THEN WENT TO VISIT THE PARROT PLACE, WHERE WE USE TO GO WHEN THEY WERE LITTLE. IT WAS GREAT FUN UNTIL THE BIRD BIT JAC AND WE REMEMBERED WHILE WE STOPPED GOING. HA. PLUS THE PRICE HAS GONE UP BUT THEN AGAIN WHO’S HAS NOT. DON’T EVEN GET MY STARTED ON HOW EVERYONE IS CUTTING BACK ON QUALITY OR SNEAKING IN COSTS TO COMPENSATE. UHGG!

I HAVE NEVER FELT SO BROKE. FOR ME I NEVER HAVE NOT DONE SOMETHING BECAUSE OF MONEY. FOR THE MOST PART ANYWAYS, I AM COUNTING MY PENNIES AND IT IS NOT FUN AT ALL. I CAN’T SHOP, OR EAT OR WHATEVER MY FEELINGS AWAY.

MY FEELINGS HAVE BEEN STRANGER THAN USUAL. I FOUND OUT MY DOCTOR PRESCRIBED ME A UNHEALTHY COCKTAIL OF MEDICINE. I WAS FEELING REALLY WEIRD AND ANXIOUS. I WAS THANKFUL TO HAVE THE INTERNET TO RESEARCH AND CONFIRM THE WAY I FELT WAS NOT IN MY HEAD.

WILLS SLEPT OVER AT THE WILD ANIMAL PARK LAST WEEK WITH HIS SCHOOL. HE HAS MET MORE FRIENDS LATELY AND EVEN HAS A LITTLE GIRL INTERESTED IN HIM. I THINK THE MEDS ARE HELPING HIM WITH HIS SELF ESTEEM A LOT. IT IS NICE TO SEE.

ALL OF THE THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED LATELY ARE MAKING ME REALIZE THAT I NEED TO NOT ONLY LOVE AND SPEND TIME WITH MY KIDS, WHICH IS WHAT I THOUGHT WAS THE MOST IMPORTANT BUT I NEED TO BE MORE ORGANIZED AND LESS BUSY-AND FOCUS ON THE LITTLE THINGS. I HAVE SAID THIS BEFORE BUT IT IS AS IF GOD IS SLAPPING ME IN THE FACE AND I AM REALIZING THE IMPORTANCE OF IT FOR THE FIRST TIME. SO WISH ME LUCK. I HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO BUT NEIL AND I ARE GOING TO BE MORE PARTNERS AND EQUALS IN RAISING THEM BECAUSE WE BOTH HAVE BEEN NEGLEGENT IN THAT AREA.

WENT TO A BARMITZVAH AND HOLLY SMOKES-WHAT AN EVENT. THANK GOD WE ARE NOT JEWISH. WE WOULD BE BROKE, OH WE ALMOST ARE. HA. NOT REALLY A JOKE, JUST HUMBLING TO REALIZE THAT MONEY DOES NOT GROW ON TREES. ANYWAYS THIS EVENT WAS SO TOUCHING AND SPECIAL. THEY KEPT ON RAISING THE BAR AND ADDING ANOTHER ACTIVITY THAT I WAS THINKING-WHAT NEXT> JESUS WILL RISE FROM THE DEAD AND COME TO THE PARTY?? SPEAKING OF JESUS IS I NEED HIM MORE THAN EVER!