Deletion, humor and love-DO CAPS BOTHER YOU?

WELL, YES I DELETED MYSELF AGAIN. IT ALWAYS HAPPENS RIGHT AFTER I HAVE A SENSE OF SATISFACTION OF WHAT A GREAT PIECE I HAVE WRITTEN. THAT DOES NOT HAPPEN OFTEN BUT IT IS IRONIC, BUT THEN AGAIN WHAT IN MY LIFE IS NOT IRONY.I NEED TO GET A SAFETY NET. WELL I WILL DO AS I TELL MY SON EVERYTIME SOMETHING LIKE THIS HAPPENS TO HIM, THAT THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT, AND OFTEN THE NEXT THING YOU WRITE OR CREATE WILL BE BETTER. IN MY CASE I HAVE NOT FOUND THAT BECAUSE WIT HAS TO COME NATURALLY. ANYWAYS

ANYWAYS HAD AN AWESOME THERAPY SESSION YESTERDAY. WE HAD SUCH GREAT CONVERSATION BACK AND FORTH. HE SAID SO MANY INTELLIGENT THINGS THAT I FELT AS IF MY HEAD WAS GOING TO EXPLODE , IN A GOOD WAY. LIKE EPIPHONIES. I SEE THE PROGRESS THAT I HAVE MADE AND WHERE I WANT TO GO, ON MY LATE JOURNEY TO GROWING UP.

TODAY I AM FEELING A LOT OF LOVE FOR MY OLDEST SON WILLIAM, WHO IS ELLEVEN. AS WE ALL KNOW HE HAS BEEN A HIGHLY SPIRITED KID,AND LATELY HAD HAS REALLY MATURED. HALLELUJAH! MY THERAPIST REMINDS ME VERY MUCH THAT HE IS STILL A CHILD AND I SHARE TO MUCH WITH HIM, AS I DO WITH EVERYONE. VERY INSIGHTFUL AND TRUE. ANYWAYS WILLS IS GETTING USE TO OUR HOUSE, HE COMMENTED ON THE NICE LANDSCAPE AND HOW HE WANTS TO TAKE SOME GROUND COVER FROM HIS SCHOOL TO PLANT. I AM SURE THEY WILL LOVE THAT. HE ALSO HAS BEEN COOKING AND MAKING QUESADILLAS AND POTATOE SKINS FOR HIMSELF AND THE FAMILY. HE IS A PERFECTIONIST LIKE HIS DAD, SO EVERYTHING HE DOES HE DOES WELL, EXCEPT FOR BEING DISRESPECTFUL TO ME. HE HAD ME SIGN A TEST HE GOT A D IN YESTERDAY. HE STRATEGICALLY PLACED HIS HAND OVER THE GRADE. WELL I KNOW THAT ONE WELL TO MUCH, SO IT DID NOT WORK. I ALSO HAPPEN TO KNOW THAT HE HAS REALLY BEEN WORKING HARD AND GOTTEN A’S ON RECENT TESTS………SO I LET IT GO. HE IS SUPER HARD ON HIMSELF AND MAKES CHANGES WHEN NECESSARY. MY MOTHER DID POINT OUT TO ME THAT BEING A LENIANT PARENT IS A LOT EASIER THAN NOT BEING ONE. WHICH MAKES OR HELPS ME REALIZE THAT IT CAN COME FROM LAZINESS WHICH IS SOMETHING I NEVER WANT TO DO, BE OR SAY. I ALSO AM STARTING TO REALLY PUT MYSELF IN OTHER’S SHOES SO I CAN SEE HOW EVERYTHING I DO AND SAY EFFECTS OTHERS AND NOT JUST THINK ABOUT IT FROM MY PERSPECTIVE. IF I KNOW IT I DONT’ DO IT, BUT SOMETIMES I CAN GET LOST IN THOUGHT AND NOT REMEMBER. ANYWAYS BACK TO WILLS, HE HELPED ME MOVE SOME FURNTITURE YESTERDAY. HE GOT A DOLLY AND WAS TELLING ME HOW TO DO IT CORRECTLY. I LOVED WATCHING HIM BE SO PATIENT AND CONSIDERATE, ESPECIALLY AS I WAS RAMMING IT AROUND THE CORNER KILLING FLOWERS ALONG THE WAY, AS I DO. HE IS LOVING MUSIC AND SINGING IT WITH ME AND HIS FRIENDS. I SHOULD SAY CERTAIN TYPES OF MUSIC, NOT RAP…….WHICH BRINGS ME TO LATEST AMY STORY………………………………I PICKED A SONG FOR MY RINGBACK TONE WHICH WAS GETTING A LOT OF COMMENTS ON. FOR EXAMPLE ‘OH THAT IS A CHANGE A STRANGE CHANGE BUT ONE.” ANYWAYS FINALLY I LISTENED TO IT, AND IT WAS SOME POT SMOKING, SONG I HAD NEVER EVEN HEARD OF………SO NEEDLESS TO SAY I CHANGED IT TO ONE OF MY ALL FEELING, SENSITIVE SONGS BY BRIT, WHEN I COME OUT FROM UNDER. WHICH I THINK I AM HAPPENING TO DO RIGHT NOW………….LATER GATER