Where the bleep?

I Was just looking for some of my entries and they are nowhere to be found. No wonder I am losing some audience members…………..Well am in bed, and a bit tired and grumpy so I will make it quick. Today is Neil’s bay and I cooked or we cooked a really nice meal for him. I tried to recreate something I had at a restaurant last week, seabass, tomatoes, lemon and bacon. It was so good. My kids loved it. That is always a good way to get me in a better mood. My mind was thinking to much today and for me that can be dangerous. I get lost in thought and or lost in translation at times.

Kaylee keeps saying to me or others, “Okay Word.” Then she is worrying about natural disasters and dying, her friends dying. It would be nice if one of my kids did not worry like I did or can. Oh yea Jac, he just lives in his own bubble of soccer. Today that receptionist gave me a talk about being late to pick up my kids. I use to try but now they dont’ even care. In my defense they are never around and like to hang out. I need to have a clearing and a talk with them, so they are not hiding some upset feelings.  That took my good mood away adn I felt super shamed…….Oh parenthood…………damned if we do or damned if we don’t. All I know is I try but give them more power and or credit they should have or take on as a child.

Tomorrow I made the mistake of volunteering. Shhh. I don’t mind but this is something a bit out of my league. I need to get there and hour early to read about Art Attacks program as well as watch the video. I also needed to buy potatoes for each student. I hope I have enough. Anyways I am nervous about it, and it is not a good week, since I am super busy with getting ready for my party. The good news is they are just in kindergarten so they won’t notice if I mess up.

Yesterday William was saying how cute kaylee was and how we looked so alike, then Jac said,”Kaylee is cute, but Mommy is hoter.” OMG. NOt ready for this.

My good friend said she went in the shower to see her sons (12) swollen glands and low and behold puberty had sprung to her suprise. She said she was in shock and could barely take her eyes of that, all the while her son was calling Her Mommy still. Aw………..cute but hopefully not for a while at my house. Wills is doing better, and cooking constantly. I just need to get him to relax and let me be, Ha………He takes on so much responsibility that I don’t want it to harm him in the future. He tries very hard, that is something I recognize, when I am not being lazy. He is really becoming and amazing cook. We may get him singing lessons since he has a great voice. So many talents so little time/money or etc.

Did I also tell you the parking guy screamed at me and another woman the other day. Atleast it was not just me. I said to him,’I don’t understand the fricken rules, they change daily explain them to me!: The problem is when I pull up my kids dont’ get out and then all of the other mother’s freak out and honk