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GOod news, I thought I deleted my entry but I published it although I was not finished………..So far today Kaylee has asked if she can have a coconut bday party and a cotton candy bday party. All day this goes on and all I say,’Sure,” cuz I know she will change her mind for the next six months. Kaylee now has a little cold. They have been going around our household, or it. She just told me she likes to be at her bff’s house when she is sick cuz her bff takes such good care of her. I am the type that when their heart hurts or they are really sick, I am there but tiny little boo boo’s or coughs, not so much. I must have gotten no sympathy when I was little in that area. Ofcourse my heart was always in turmoil in some way or another. My heart rules my mind, and I am trying to alternate that for my kids sake. So what else is new, I have probably written that five thousand times in my blog history.
Today Jac’s first soccer game is and he is sooooooooo excited. He is so obsessed. He had a school presentation yesterday and it was so flippin cute. He was so happy because we were both there, and Neil usually works. He had a permanent smile on his face the entire time, and barely sang. He had a speaking part as well. All I know is while I was watching him, I ha so much love flooding out of my heart and was picturing him when I gave birth to him. It was so cute and endearing. I again thought it should be showed around at all the old folks homes to cheer them up. I feel that I have been somewhat distracted with my kids and I need to not be so, it feels empty. Going to yoga now, seeing results in my workout and getting motivated, then to lunch with Dyane and Marina, Jac’s game and then Ashleigh’s bday tonight and some other event.
Had some unusual experiences this past week but once I got passed the clouds, and feelings, and stood up for myself (exersizing that muscle) felt it, got through it, and woke up a bit stronger……….hurray!