Wings

by Amy Cubbison on April 19th, 2011

I am laying in bed after the gym listening to Paul Mcartney and Wings. It sounds great especially along with the dryer noise in the back. ha…………Everytime I do laundry, which is not so often. ha. But trying to stay on top of it-but everytime I clean out the lint screen, a memory resurfaces. It is when I was little, and my aunt Mary had a fire at her home. My mother told me it was because she did not clean out the lint screen in dryer. I remember from then on I was diligently cleaning out the lint screen…..and then another memory resurfaces-I one time couldnt’ find a cup and so I drank out of the Spray and Wash lid. I then boasted to my mother how clever I was and she said,” Don’t do that it is chemicals and dangerous.” From then on after worry, I never did that again. ha ha………….I think it is important that we all pay attention to all of our childhood memories and how they have impacted our life. It is funny how so many memories seem so insignificant and I wonder why I remember them so. As you can see I was a bit of a worrier. I feel like I have been worrying more as of late but i guess with all that I have been through, that is understandable. I am doing everything in my power to not focus on worrying and putting all the good stuff in my brain…….I have been working out again so that always helps. I was not for a bit due to my leg and that served to not change or prevent hurt so why not do it.?……………William and i are continuing to have struggles but I am not letting it get the best of me. I am constantly on him and telling him how much I love him and encourage him to be that sensitive, caring, respectful boy I raised and am raising………….Kaylee wore her new Twinkle toes yesterday. She was excited. We are having a good, ,organized week and plan on continuing until the end of the school year. I got Kaylee back in gymnastics which I was very happy about. I told her I can’t wait until I am not hurting anymore and I can be more physical with her. I love spotting her in gymnastics and playing with the kids more. ……I got invited to go on a few trips with friends, that are comped with friends. It is nice to have something to look forward to. School is interesting but easy since it is just a prep class. I look forward to the meaty, intense ones. I also look forward to getting back in to painting. The flowers Kaylee and i painted are doing well, which is a first for me. I took a taxi to do errands and go to grocery store yesterday which was expensive but nice to get out. I will be driving again shortly and that will be lovely…………..I saw my Daddy for a little bit yesterday and although it was brief, it was super nice to see him……..Love him. love him…………..Jac is doing his soccer and doing well as usual. He is such an easy, laid back child and I can’t kiss and hug him enough………….Bailey our dog got out yesterday again. He always runs to the school and they get irritated. I told them just think about it as him being the school’s mascot…….Ha. That is my sense of humor………So Siscal (me) watched two more movies. One was Wall Street 2. It was okay but there was so much greed in it, that is disgusted me. I should avoid things like that these days and just watch things that make me laugh………I got a great new book and it is not a self help book so that’s great. I did order one however called from Abandonment to Healing. I heard it is awesome……I am healed a lot but still have some hurt to help……………..All I know is I just want to do a great job raising my children and makeup for my mistakes in the past two years…….I love them with all my heart.

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