Bon soire

by Amy Cubbison on December 5th, 2011

I have had a lil wine and my french is coming back to me…..ha ha. not really……………..I woke up not feeling motivated to do anything and then I chose to skip the gym and do the things I am dreading, (the list is very long)…….One of them was to clean my house, organize my endless clothes and jewelry and organize my daughters room……………..My friend Nicole helped me………..well six hours of labor and what a workout………….I felt amazing. My house looks great, I am once again ashamed at how many clothes and “Stuff” i have , albeit selling it on ebay……………But nevertheless i need to remind myself when I am not in the mood to get out of bed because I am overwhelmed with things to do-i just need to put one foot in front of other and make it happen, little by little…………I dont know why when I am down or tired it is so hard for me to visualize how good I will feel, or to get motivated………..I know this time of year I get cold and tired easy, and like to be super mellow….but that does not work with my life these days…………………….Today my friend Said to Kaylee, ” why are you so sweet?” I was sort of waiting to get kuddos for that but nevertheless I did not and kaylee responded,” I am just naturally a sweet caring person who cares about others…..’ So flippin cute……………….Today I also started making a dream board and a fashion panel, as well as wrote short and long term goals…………..ALl i know is health, exercise, daily meditation, reading and writing is a must!!! When I am too tired and overly thinking-that is the time I need to meditate…………..This is my story and my life and I am living it out loud and in full, to the best I can. I do know i have to constantly repeat things to myself in order for them to become a habit and a routine………….ie” i have been exercising for twenty six years regularly which is a lifestyle……..just like my daddy……………………Last weekend was a busy one. I missed a la jolla charity christmas ball, that I was looking forward to because my date (friend) hurt his leg……..It was a disappointment because I was all dressed with nowhere to go but again another lesson and learning experience and humbling…………..I cried myself to sleep mainly because it is a tradition in my family..and I heard my father was dancing in his wheelchair on the dance floor……..but i do as I always do, and recognize my part in it………………..I also feel that I am ready for big changes and big letting go………………..One of my goals is to write down my values and looking at them reminds me that I am a moral person and life has challenged me to where I have not been as much as I want to be but I am stopping it now!!!!……………….My mother took my kids out shopping yesterday. They all got a bunch of clothes. They were so happy and were tooting my mom’s horn. haha. I miss those days…………..It was fun………..I also went to a nice party last night, with nice people and a great band that sang old favorites that reminded me of my brothers and sisters when I was little………………Also some good career opportunities coming so today thank you God for giving me a hopeful day and feeling like there is some opportunity out there for me and everyone…..

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