Remember just because someone does things different than you, it does not mean their version is right??

by Amy Cubbison on December 12th, 2011

I like to remind myself (again) of this…….it is non parallel to the other thing I am trying to improve on…rule following……….I am in a mellow mood today…..nice and content, much different than the anxious way i felt yesterday….It is a busy time of year and I do have some things to worry about, and take care of but I just need to continue to get my ass up and going, and do my things that help me,,,,number one-get to the gym…….I made myself go yesterday, when I usually dont have to make myself, and I did forty five minutes of cardio……It felt great. I then came home , took a shower and was ready to take on the day…………Some updates on the Cubbie’s……..Today is a rainy, stormy day and Jean my bff from childhood is in town. So we took a personal holiday off. Jean just left but it was a pleasure having her and seeing her…It is like being home. So today Jac, and Kaylee and I are finishing decorating the tree, as well as baking Christmas cookies……I am going to make a fire, and I made a huge pot of Chile…..I love rainy days, at home…..So i am trying to get some things done, let some things go, enjoy my kids and be in the moment…..My friend Gina invited us up to the Festival of Lights on a yacht friday night, in newport beach…..So that will be special………This time of year I as well as everyone need to put some things on hold, just until after the holidays, in order to enjoy the holidays…………My house and life has been hectic and full…some good some bad………A friend from La jolla is in a bind and staying here. She and I are like Frick and Frack….She is hilarious though and we just crack each other up. We are driving the roomie crazy….I finally met someone as flaky or more than me. haha. I mean that lovingly..She has tons of awesome qualities and a big heart, which is all that really matters to me. She has had quite the exciting life and we exchanged some of our exciting, celebrity stories with one another last night…….She loved my Oprah story……When I hung out with her one night, we bonded, and I gave her ideas for shows……For me it was like hanging out with the president…I wanted to be on Oprah so bad on my bucket list but I have to let that one go but there are plenty of other options…..I especially see them when I am being fruitful and optimistic about some opportunities that are coming and that I am trying to make…..I just love Hope and dreams…..lauren helped me organize my closet and then I organized Kaylee’s room and closet. It felt great…..Now I just need to finish………That is another thing I need to remember automatically…….If I am feeling bad , i will feel better once i do things I am dreading or accomplish something………………I am in hormonal something these days…Everything is fine as per my doctor but I am having some narly, naughty dreams…….oh my gosh…….They would make Madonna blush. ha ha. Oh by the way Lauren met Madonna, and I loved that story…….She and I were always so guy crazy….ha. Lucky thing we did not hang out a long time ago………….I am missing my teenager today. Tomorrow night we are going to go out on a “date night.” OR to him hangin out…maybe dinner and a movie……..The other day Jean, Lauren and I went to my parents house and sat on patio overlooking the ocean. It was beautiful and I was holding my father’s hand and rubbing his back. It was so nice. I need to visit much more often. Jean was telling my father stories about all her family, which my Dad enjoyed. He has known Jean and all her siblings most of their life…..Jean’s father is in the hospital and ill and I am praying for him….It is that time of our lives, when we are all realizing our lives are half over, and our parents will not be here forever………That is something else that was making me anxious the other night. I have not felt that anxious in a long time. I can get sad but not so often anxious…….Which is better of the two according to me………….Well I have had some more humbling and humiliating experiences on my school of the hard knocks, according to a La jolla girl. I went to get some state assistance finally, and it did not go real well…..I was telling her the truth and trying to explain to her how serious I was and have been by telling her I sold a lot of Gucci on ebay and gold……Well as my friend said, those two words should not be in same sentence as assistance…anyways it was so humbling to see people in so much need and on drugs etc…..I was worrying about everyone there. I also went to some meetings that were eye opening and for that I am grateful. Went with a couple of my hot friends who are having financial challenges lately and everyone said we were like the show Two broke girls, but Three broke girls………..But I do have to say Orders, are picking up, Legally I am going to be able to get child support and alimony, and I am busting my booty to pay my own bills now…..and as much as I hate it, it feels good…….I am so grateful that I have a lovely home to cook, love and raise my children in………..So gonna go and decorate the tree with the kids……I want to try and sneak in a movie for me later, if I can……..again wish I could write everything but i am learning to keep some thing private and for myself but still be interesting……

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