Farewell Fois gras

by Amy Cubbison on August 8th, 2012

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I am bummed about fois gras going away but probably not as much as the people who made it on their duck farms, or restaurants like the one and only Pamplemousse………So my car is doing well now…..thank God and it was not a huge thing to fix…..Although some other challenges this week but not going to let anything get me down or away from my personal goals……Gonna enjoy next two weeks with my children of summer…….It has been great…next week my sister and hubby, and niece and hubby are coming out…..I love my family and I love when they come and visit. Plus kids get to see their cousins………So what has been up?? Kaylee and jac only fight two times a day now…..ha ha…..Kaylee started her cheer and that story could be an entire blog entry itself…The limited version is I had to drive Kaylee to Ramona for her cheer camp……..NOt sure about you but I did not even know where Ramona was……We set off and I had to call Lou, for play by on how to get there……I do need a gps in my car but then I would not be able to bug people as much. 🙂 anyways we must of taken the long way because it took us over an hour and a half…….Kaylee kept saying she was homesick on drive….ha…..It was a good lesson for kaylee to see how some people live….It was funny to see the goats for sale and ostriches ……Had avocados twenty for five dollars…Worth the drive….Anyways we made it . When we walked in to the gym with hundreds of cheer people, I found myself getting high school nerves again. I felt nervous for kaylee and Myself . Good thing Kaylee has a strong constitution. It seems everyone there was or has been a cheerleader in their life, and most moms……I sort of felt like a fish out of water but my baby girl gave it an eleven out of ten so the journey was worth it………again I am nervous about tight rules and regulations but it will be good for me and of course as long as Kaylee likes it…..So worth it…….Went to get a check up today……It seems my lump that was benign is growing so I have to pay attention-preventative- to that…I love my doctor . It is like a therapy session for me. She has seen all of my ups and downs, mainly downs in the past two years but going up and hopefully continuing…..Gotta move on from all of that and not mention it as often…….My parents came over for dinner the other night. It was very nice…..i was feeding my father. I am so happy the family is coming out to see him…….So neil has a lot of work coming up….yay…..Could use some money……..when the kids go back to school, I am going to bump up LeaveMeB as well as work for Peter or find something else to supplement my income or our income. I feel vulnerable especially when something breaks or there is an unexpected bill……I am writing an article for Phoebe about learning about the value of money in my forties……..I look at some of the material things in my life that I bought, and I can’t believe i did that…..I mean now I would be much more careful…..I have been there and hopefully will be again but much WISER…………Next week going to work a few days with the mentally challenged which always is meaningful……..I am diligently reading my Coda books. They really help me to separate my feelings from others…..I know I can be selfish but i often can put someone else’s problems before mine, and that does not help anyone…….and feeling sorry for people is not helpful for anyone either…………I had the worst sleep last night. It was like I was was awake all night. My kids are laughing at me because when we watch movies I often dose off and talk in my sleep. Last night I said,’HOw much wood can a wood chuck, chuck, if a wood chuck could chuck wood..” ha ha ha…..Since we are not going to be able to take a vacation until fall break we are going to sort of vacation in San Diego, and be tourists here. Yesterday Kaylee , Jac and myself just hung out in our back yard……We swung on the swing and Jac was showing me local butterflies and climbing in bushes…….Then they were making flower necklaces…Very cute and it reminded me once again, as redundant as I am, of how important slow, free time is in the summer…….I always looked so forward to no homework, and not many plans, and doing what I loved and wanted to do in Summer…………. When I am quiet or just sitting in the moment with my children a lot of my childhood memories surface………I know I am such a sap and sometimes to much back in to memories of my past…. I read somewhere that can keep one stuck…. I do also try to a enjoy everyday and be some what plan for future…………..Kaylee and Jac are at the stage where they make up jokes a lot…….HELP??? How many fake times can I laugh….ha . Kaylee told me that she can’t wear her training bra because the neighbor told her she will get breast cancer if she wears it to early…..ha…….Then yesterday my lil old soul Kaylee said to me,’Mommy I don’t want to get married, because I dont want to change my last name.’ I informed her that she does not have to and she was so excited…….She also asked me about getting her period and having babies. It was cute . She is young but curious and able to ask about it as I am glad she can………….My oldest son is good but remember he is anonymous now…….:) Lil charmer…………….Tonight I am having a min La jolla high reunion at my casa with some of my favorite chicas coming to dinner……..Otherwise going to lay low until my friend Cindy comes in town next week. There is a Riviera party thursday night I may go to but probably going to opt out of Black/White party friday…..Neil is out of town and so I have to pick and choose……plus If I go out late once I am good for a month……or so…..Last night Kaylee said she was so excited to be in her cozy bed and go to sleep…….Just like I am every night……I absolutely enjoy spending alone time with all of my kids. That is when the best conversations are had….Kaylee and I went to see Diary of Wimpy Kid, together. Kaylee is such a great companion…..I find myself laughing with my kids a lot lately and even at my inadequacies . The other day i said there was dust around and Kaylee said,’Maybe because you never vacum (dont even know how to spell it) Then she said no offense Mom but you are not the best dishwasher in the world…..ha ha………had a great time on Dyane’s bday in the limo…….What a great core group of woman and friends for Dyane……..I wore a somewhat conservative dress for me. It did not feel right. I kept saying that I felt like Eleanor Rigby……….or Martha stewart…….Gotta find somewhere in the middle………….Taking kids to lunch and the pool………for a big change…….Oh but i have been doing a lot of cardio lately and reminded of why exercise has and always will be so important in my life!!!!!!!!!!! Makes each day better in all ways……..Kaylee and I are continuing to collect for our collage…..We need to buy a big canvas to do……………..I also have a fall appointment to go to National University for my masters……I can do one month on one month off………….I need to continue to build myself independently………The other day I said to my mom,’Can’t you just say to me, that I am doing an okay job , and making progress.” She replied,’Yes, and I got tears in my eyes….
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Farewell fois Gras…….

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