What a week….

by Amy Cubbison on August 24th, 2012

What a week…….As I mentioned earlier, I have family in town from the east coast…….I have a very eclectic, interesting family…..very colorful…..but tons of love for everyone and one another…..If one person is in trouble in anyway, everyone is on board….It is just nice to hang out with my family and do nothing and feel a sense of blood belonging and acceptance…..We also laugh a lot……..Laughter is so important in everyone’s lives. It feels healing and it is healing. Everyone in our family has a great sense of humor as well…….Today going to the gym, and then heading to la jolla to spend the day with family. We are also going to visit a longtime La jolla friend Mara, whom I adore and her children……Tonight my parents are having an extended friend and family party catered by Bret’s barb Q. I told Kaylee I had a surprise for her at my parents. When I told her it was Bret’s she said,’Oh I thought a famous singer was coming there, like Taylor Swift.” ha ha She has a vivid imagination like me………So one of the reasons my sister and brother in law are out here, was to talk to Hospice about Dad…..I guess sometimes my family does not tell me everything as I am so close to my father and i get overly upset. A year ago they almost did it, and my mother said no. I am having an appreciation for how my mother is being with my father, and sits with him often. He loves my mom sitting by his side…..I am trying to appreciate everyone for all they are and do without expectations…….That is a nice tool and a gift for growing, as well as the looking at myself when I see behavior that bothers me….It makes complaining a lot less fun…ha ha……If we do a gratitude journal for ourselves each night, and then treat others like that, life is pleasant and beautiful……..So as you can imagine I am very scared and sad about my father……I adore him, love him and feel so lucky to have had a dad like him…….I have been upset over my father for the past five years as he has had several strokes, so as my friend put it, GOd has been preparing all of us for a long time………I want to spend a lot of time with him as well as have him surrounded by love, love, love………..he gave a lot of love and a lot to everyone around him his entire life……………..My brother in law also told me Minor, our family nanny, body is breaking down….She is 93…….Another exceptional human being……..So is the cycle of life……..It has been nice to get in bed by nine again and sleep well……Kaylee is loving her cheerleading so much. I am happy for her. Their first game is this saturday…….She is super excited. She shows me the cheers and she is such a natural….Kaylee saw me crying about pop pop and she went and got me a tissue and hugged me, while drying my tears……..I have a new local favorite spot that i have heard about for years-Calypso…….I met Lou there for a glass of wine and a salad while Kaylee was in cheer……It is filled with interesting people, who are just there to chill and not flash…The staff is so friendly and the food is great as well as atmosphere……They have music every night. A nice little find. It is good to see Lou as he has been back east for two weeks……..My kids like school, and so all well on that front. …..Today it is a little cooler and it rained last night. It has a hint of fall this morning, which i love……….It is funny as the seasons change, I seem to be ready for each one at each time…….Yesterday had a very interesting conversation with my brother in law, about our history and heritage from Russia, just as his ancestors did….I found it fascinating…….It makes all the problems here on a daily basis seem somewhat insignificant……..minus life and death things…….I want to learn more history of our family and Emigrating from Russia,,,,,,,,and one more baby step for growth for me….I actually had a long political conversation with my friend Mark, and i was intrigued…..One thing I will give Lou, is he got me so irritated in politics and his conservative view that he awoke and sparked an interest in me…………LOve and peace, health and good things to you all out there!!!
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