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Sep 23 17

Thirteen steps to make a better you!

by Amy Cubbison

I had a thought while I was sleeping. I often have good ideas in my sleep. I wanted to compose a list of thirteen things to help change your life for the better. I am talking to myself and reminding myself as well. Here is goes: Add one every thirty days and do it until it becomes part of your routine.

1) Wake up in the morning and do a prayer/Meditation/Visualization on what you want your life to look like

2) Pick at least three days a week to work out. Thirty minutes of cardio and some sort of strength training or yoga.

3) Drink at least six to eight glasses of water daily

4) Free write everyday, whether in a blog, or for your own personal growth. Try and do it for fifteen minutes and do not worry about punctuation or grammar

5) Say five things you are grateful for every single day, no matter how small

6) Write down your life goals and dreams of where you want to be in the future and then read it daily. Picture it.

7) Limit what you watch, see and read. Make sure you are watching, reading funny and or inspirational more than you are being exposed to the negativity in the world

8) Pay attention to your body and when you are hungry and or full. Be in tune with what you are craving, let yourself have it, no matter what it is, Eat slowly and enjoy each bite, paying attention to when you are full. Do not deprive yourself because then you will binge

9) Practice mindfulness every day for at least ten minutes a day. It brings you back in to today so you don’t worry about the future because all you have is right now

10) Do something for someone every day. Practice an act of random kindness however small it may be to lift someone’s spirts

11) Work on you listening skills, it gets easier. Reflect back what people are saying instead of what you want to say. You will build better relationships and feel greater intimacy. People will want to be around you and you will connect with them on a deeper level

12)Have an active sex life, or pleasure yourself a few times a week. Our bodies are made to have orgasms and they are very healthy for your body, mind and soul.

13) Work in a field you love or are interested in. Start over whatever it is because you will be successful if you love it and you will flourish.

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Sep 15 17

My Manifestations

by Amy Cubbison

Manifestation, goals and Vision

In a years time

I want to be enrolled in graduate school in MAT program and loving it. I will be in a loving, balanced, healthy relationship to a stable man, who is attractive to me, financially secure, and emotionally strong. I want him to be a clean cut, honest good guy who values me for me, and respects my body. I want to be able to travel with him and get excited about life again. To see new places and have new experiences and we both totally enjoy one another and trust one another.

I want my house to have a remodeled kitchen and bathroom in my bed room, a new carpet, new furniture in my family room.
I want to have a good, relationship with my Mother and all siblings. One where they can respect me and my boundaries and vica versa.

I want to lose ten pounds so I feel at my optimal health and weight,
I want to not be scared of life and or death but embrace it and relish in every minute, every day of it.

I want to be in control of my assets and have an exact accounting of what I have, what goes in and control what goes out. I never want to be fearful of my electricity being turned off, or my credit card being rejected. I want peace in my life in areas of health, love and money.
I hope to have followed one of my dreams of being an inventor and have a prototype of my idea and be on my way to get backing for it.

I want all of my children to be in a healthy, good place and doing what they love while making their small contributions to the world and others.

I never want to never had the sad feelings that I have had for a part of my life where I feel that life is to painful to me, and I am too sensitive to be here.

I want to everyday make some love in the world in any small or big way to any persons I encounter.

I want to rely on God and have strong faith to persevere.

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Sep 15 17

A Beautiful Day!

by Amy Cubbison

I wanted to write about a beautiful day I had last Friday. It was one of those days where everything fell in to place as it was meant to be. I worked out, then went to work at Wish Boutique. It was slow but consistent. I helped about four people and worked with them one on one like a stylist. Each person and I had a bonding experience together. It was really nice. After work, I went to get my oil changed, and the guy gave me a deal. I also got a free carwash. I went to get my free carwash and the young guy, upgraded my free carwash to a supreme and told me I was beautiful.. I then went to pump my gas. I had a sad thought of “I am all alone.” Then this voice in my head and heart said to me” You are not alone, I am always with you.” It was not weird, it was the higher power speaking to me. It felt very comforting.

I wanted to write about a beautiful day I had last Friday. It was one of those days where everything fell in to place as it was meant to be. I worked out, then went to work at Wish Boutique. It was slow but consistent. I helped about four people and worked with them one on one like a stylist. Each person and I had a bonding experience together. It was really nice. After work, I went to get my oil changed, and the guy gave me a deal. I also got a free carwash. I went to get my free carwash and the young guy, upgraded my free carwash to a supreme and told me I was beautiful.. I then went to pump my gas. I had a sad thought of “I am all alone.” Then this voice in my head and heart said to me” You are not alone, I am always with you.” It was not weird, it was the higher power speaking to me. It felt very comforting. I wanted to write about a beautiful day I had last Friday. It was one of those days where everything fell in to place as it was meant to be. I worked out, then went to work at Wish Boutique. It was slow but consistent. I helped about four people and worked with them one on one like a stylist. Each person and I had a bonding experience together. It was really nice. After work, I went to get my oil changed, and the guy gave me a deal. I also got a free carwash. I went to get my free carwash and the young guy, upgraded my free carwash to a supreme and told me I was beautiful.. I then went to pump my gas. I had a sad thought of “I am all alone.” Then this voice in my head and heart said to me” You are not alone, I am always with you.” It was not weird, it was the higher power speaking to me. It felt very comforting.

Sep 15 17

news

by Amy Cubbison

Good News and bad news-I am allergic to all dairy, not just cow’s milk. Goodbye Romano cheese, I will miss you forever. The good news is Tina and I are going to Kaboo, to see PINK on Saturday. A dream of mine

 

Aug 21 17

Yay

by Amy Cubbison

I finally got back in to my blog. I was locked out for a while. As you probably know I do not love technology but I do love my new iPhone……………Yes I am now an Iphonie…………I hesitated for so long but now I get it. Lucky that Raymond bought it for me or I probably would still be swearing and screaming at my piece of shit Android.  So yes that is exciting news….and also Raymond bought me some Lulu Lemon yoga clothes…………..another first. I cant bring myself to spend that kind of money on yoga or exercise clothes………..I would say that all in my life is peachy keen but not so……………I am asking for some necessary documentation from our family trust where I am a beneficiary and I am being ignored. I have also upset my mother so I have not spoken to her in a couple of months. Me with my abandonment issues-this is not fairing well with me and I wake up daily with a literally aching broken heart……………..I also miss my father all day long, everyday. I could work on a soap opera as I can cry on que. I just have to think of my dear father in heaven.

On a positive note, my boys are back from England and they had a fabulous time meeting and visiting their relatives. I missed them terribly and it was hard to let them go but we all learned invaluable lessons………..they are safe back and wiser.

I decided to prevent the empty nest syndrome which I am sure to have, I signed myself up for Graduate school to become an MFT. I start in October…….Excited and nervous. Ciao for now.xo

Jul 25 17

Missing my Dad

by Amy Cubbison

I am missing my father more than ever. At least I get to see him in my dreams nightly.  I feel like I am lonely these days as my children are more interested in their friends than hanging out with me. I knew it was bound to happen but it still crept up on me.  They need me when they want a ride or a meal.:) I should and am happy they are independent, well adjust people but I still can complain and miss them.:)  Time to focus on Momma’s future……

May 14 17

Mother’s Day. What it means to me to be a Mom.

by Amy Cubbison
  1. Happy Mother’ day to all Moms and it is the hardest job in the world but my favorite job in the world. What motherhood means to me. The most love I have ever felt in one instance was when i saw my first born William. This rush of sheer love ran all throughout my body. I had never experienced that before and the fact that this beautiful little soul was for me to love and take care of filled me up with joy. I could not believe God sent him to me, and that nobody could take him away from me. I knew in an instant if it came to my life or his life, i would surrender mine right away. I thought I could never relive that experience of surmounting love until I had Jac, and Kaylee. Suddenly my heart for one, was open to loving the same about of love for each, but multiplied exponentially. Having children gave me a purpose I was destined for and although I have had at times made some large regretful mistakes I can honestly say that mothering is what I feel that I was made to do…………….My goal as a mother have always been to, build their confidence so that they believe in themselves, do what they love, enjoy each and every minute of life and try to see the world as a half full glass. To stand up for themselves but be kind and make the world a little better of a place by contributing some how. I am so proud of all three of my children especially the hurdle William has gone through……..I thank God daily for their well being and belief in themselves. Even though I do not like the tittle and I hope it is NOT anytime soon…………..I look forward to being a hands on grandmother and although I wish for my children to have their own healthy lives, i hope to be a regular part of it…………and a person and place they can always return to , to get filled up with love…….Happy Mother’ day to all Moms and it is the hardest job in the world but my favorite job in the world. What motherhood means to me. The most love I have ever felt in one instance was when i saw my first born William. This rush of sheer love ran all throughout my body. I had never experienced that before and the fact that this beautiful little soul was for me to love and take care of filled me up with joy. I could not believe God sent him to me, and that nobody could take him away from me. I knew in an instant if it came to my life or his life, i would surrender mine right away. I thought I could never relive that experience of surmounting love until I had Jac, and Kaylee. Suddenly my heart for one, was open to loving the same about of love for each, but multiplied exponentially. Having children gave me a purpose I was destined for and although I have had at times made some large regretful mistakes I can honestly say that mothering is what I feel that I was made to do…………….My goal as a mother have always been to, build their confidence so that they believe in themselves, do what they love, enjoy each and every minute of life and try to see the world as a half full glass. To stand up for themselves but be kind and make the world a little better of a place by contributing some how. I am so proud of all three of my children especially the hurdle William has gone through……..I thank God daily for their well being and belief in themselves. Even though I do not like the tittle and I hope it is NOT anytime soon…………..I look forward to being a hands on grandmother and although I wish for my children to have their own healthy lives, i hope to be a regular part of it…………and a person and place they can always return to , to get filled up with love…….
Apr 24 17

A busy but good day

by Amy Cubbison

Mama is tired today……..but I feel very productive. I had a little coffee time with Deanna after I dropped the kids and made them breakfast………then I got my car washed, went to grocery store, hit the post office and other errands for all, worked out, Picked up Jac, and then Kaylee. Came home cleaned the kitchen, did four loads of laundry, took Kaylee to dance, then came back and cleaned kitchen again, made dinner, fed Will, cleaned my room, and the bathroom……….I liked it better when I did not notice things were dirty. ha ha. jk………Now I am going to Netflix it and write in my memoir and feel deserving of it

I am so proud of my new found love ha ha no (semi like) of cleaning, that I want my kids to notice as soon as they enter the door. Unfortunately they do not……I yawn and moan to show them I have worked hard to day only to go undiscovered again……..But boy do they notice when I do not do something!!

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Mar 21 17

Ever changing me, as the way it should be

by Amy Cubbison

I have let people treat me poorly a lot of my life. To me that just meant try hard for them to like me or see what other’s see. I was also taken advantage of in many ways especially monetarily. I have learned a lot over the past eight years and have regrets. These regrets have helped me to change. My mother has always called me a marsh mellow/ wounded soul, and disliked how sensitive I am. That has not helped matters. Being sensitive is a beautiful thing. I feel things deeply. I just have learned there are times to be sensitive and times to not be. I no longer trust everyone. I speak my mind when it is something important. I don’t work for people to like me. I communicate my feelings often even if the thought of it makes me uncomfortable. I comment when I think others treat me poorly and I even walk away from some. The difficult thing is there is back lash from that. I have more arguments. I get termed difficult at times. I get angry sometimes instead of getting depressed. Sometimes I use my words wrong and or my timing is off. People find it uncomfortable when someone who use to be a yes person, starts to say no, or have a comment. I Have been called Spoiled Brat for expressing my needs. But once again many times people react harshly to your communicating it is an issue with them. Good communication comes when you let someone have their feelings, validate them and then look at your part of it and decide to change or not. I am a mix of many things and there are a multitude of sides to me. I am always striving balance as we are all………and I think I am achieving that a little more each I have let people treat me poorly a lot of my life. To me that just meant try hard for them to like me or see what other’s see. I was also taken advantage of in many ways especially monetarily. I have learned a lot over the past eight years and have regrets. These regrets have helped me to change. My mother has always called me a marsh mellow/ wounded soul, and disliked how sensitive I am. That has not helped matters. Being sensitive is a beautiful thing. I feel things deeply. I just have learned there are times to be sensitive and times to not be. I no longer trust everyone. I speak my mind when it is something important. I don’t work for people to like me. I communicate my feelings often even if the thought of it makes me uncomfortable. I comment when I think others treat me poorly and I even walk away from some. The difficult thing is there is back lash from that. I have more arguments. I get termed difficult at times. I get angry sometimes instead of getting depressed. Sometimes I use my words wrong and or my timing is off. People find it uncomfortable when someone who use to be a yes person, starts to say no, or have a comment. I Have been called Spoiled Brat for expressing my needs. But once again many times people react harshly to your communicating it is an issue with them. Good communication comes when you let someone have their feelings, validate them and then look at your part of it and decide to change or not. I am a mix of many things and there are a multitude of sides to me. I am always striving balance as we are all………and I think I am achieving that a little more each day

Feb 21 17

Proud Mom

by Amy Cubbison

I have to brag but shh don’t tell Will. On Valentine’s he bought his girlfriend a dozen roses and interrupted her class to present them to her….awe……..then yesterday I heard him say to Kaylee,’We need to spend more time together, after all you need to learn from me how to how a guy should treat you so you have a good relationship in the future.!” last but not least Will told me today, that he is so happy I always was his cheerleader and built him up because he believes a lot of his confidence comes from me supporting him emotionally………#ProudMom #sometimesitisallworthit #makingUpThisHashtagAsIgo