i woke up today feeling a bit bummed from the drama yesterday and lack of sleep and did not feel to good but I ended up having a great day. A day so great that you want it to continue and never end, where you feel so blessed and lucky and you def. don’t want that to end. Anyways the big news of the day is that I got hair extentions….omg. I forgot how much fun long hair is and was. I am defintitely noticing an attention increase. The best news is that they look real , mainly because my hair is so thick and looks like the extentions hair. Fun new thing. Today we all loved on our puppy again and Kaylee said,”This puppy makes me smile everyday, ” and i said,”I agree.” I also say that about you Kaylee everday. I can’t remember if i wrote about this or not but the other day at Daisy meetings. Kaylee had told me how she loves being small now cuz all of the taller kids fight over carrying her around and treat her like a baby . hA. well I saw it in action today. I don’t remember that as much as everyone carrying me down the halls by my overalls, or guys pinching my hynie…..ha ha> So one story before I go night night. I went to Kaylee’s daisy meeting the other day and besides the fact that our puppy stole all of the spotlight, and I was warned from bringing him again, they had a policeman and a fireman. The fireman was talking about the safety and importance of putting up a smoke alarm and then my daugher shouted out,”We don’t have one anymore cuz my mommy would set it off when she burnt things and then my dadd ripped it out of the ceiling to shut it up. So now we don’t have one.” And I thought to myself Leave It to Beaver we will never be but going to bed early I got down pat.

My life is being recorded via my blog. I am always thinking when I am in a moment, I flash back to how ironic or funny, the situation is and I take myself out of exerience. Today I took our puppy Bailey to go get shots and a checkup from Dr. Gee our old veteranarian. I have not been there since Neil and william took Molly to get put to sleep. Before that I had taken Molly for fifteen plus years to him. From when I lived in Encinitas, then carmel valley, then olivenhain. Anyways they told me they had Molly’s ashes and I just lost it. I was so sad thinking of how much I misse Molly and what a bitter sweet thing it is getting a new puppy. Plus our pup reminds us of Molly when she was a pup. Everyday I grow to love her more. Anyways I was crying and then the lady next to me inquired why and I told her, and then she started telling me about her dog Sammy she put to sleep and started ccrying. From there it was the domino effect. I swear another lady joined in and all of us our crying over our past dogs, and then I started to cheer up because my life is sitcom. ha ha. Anyways It was to see Dr. Gee after so long. He is such an animal lvoer and a bit of a nerd but today he was certainly noticing my tatas. Ha. Anyways he
scolded me for spoiling MOlly (guilty) and letting her be Alpha One in our home. So now he is on my with Bailey. He say’s we need to stop her biting and hold her in baby cradle position……….Right now kaylee is reading stories to Bailey and then she started singing,”Mama going to buy you a mockingbird.” that is so cute. that is what Cami sings to her and now I sing to her to comfort her. Ofcourse I need to make it up as I go along and it makes no sense but they have not caught me on that one yet. Other story manana

My little puppy, or our little puppy Bailey, is sitting in his favorite place-my lap. Hi is sooooo cute. Yesterday I brought him with me everywhere. He cries when the kids leave for school or when I leave. He is so attached to us. The kids are so good with him, and love him so much. Kaylee is being so nurturing towards him. She and her friends dress him in baby clothes and wheel him around in the stroller.
I am going to try and stay more focused when writing my blog. If you ar enot and ADDer than you may find it tough to follow. Right now it is the typical hectic moring and eveyone is complaining. Calgon take me away. ha. I just had to help William with his homework and can I just say “ooh vay,” I had to fricken guess on half of it. So hard-I don’t get it he is in fifth grade? I need to hire a tutor. I pretend I know what he is talking about sometimes. Ha.
I have a great story to write about later. It is one that touched my life and several others all by being kind. Gotta take the ninos to school so will come back later to finish that one story. Hurray for school-God love it.

My beloved neighbor and friend use to call her daughter this, -no she is not dead she is alive, we just moved. Anyways now I am getting a taste of what she is talking about with my five and a half year old, who talks about her bday five times a day. Hope it comes and goes quickly. ha . Just kidding. Anyways to heels experiment is continuing. The only thing that makes me feel better is two or her friends are acting the same way-so possibly has something to do with their age. I see glimpes of my lovebug but she is on vacation for the most part. This morning she was playing xbox (which btw, my boys r addicted to with a capital A). they never want to go anywhere-not even Legoland. I guess it saves me money but back on track. Kaylee was saying to Jac or the game,”Don’t you mess with my best friend.” Then I heard her tell Jac he was her best friend, and finally she just came in and told me that. I’ll take it. Whatever crumbs I can get. That was the old Amy not the new Amy but with my babies yes. Marina and Kaylee were talkking about penises and vejahjee’s or whoever you spell it. It all started because we went to to Naked cafe with friends and that struck up a conversation about being naked. Uh ol news alert-Kaylee just told me she loves me more than four boxes of pies, or four boxes of kittens. Hmm. Wonder where she got that saying?? For her bday I want to get her the Barbie pink convertable car. I wanted one so bad when I was a kd but they had not invented it. Story of my life. I have a lot of stories. ha ha. I am trying to not top anyone of with my stories because I recognized that in a comedian and and I did not like how it reflected me, sometimes. I have to remember I don’t have to say everything I think, Ask every question I have or always try to be center of attention. That is Boring. It is amazing how much I learn when I just listen, which I happen to do pretty well when I put my phone down. I love other people’s stories as well as learning about them. Sorry I am going off on so many tangens this morning. That is what happens when I wait a few days to blog. So I will try and wrap it up. Kaylee and Marina had their first soccer game. I will post a picture. kaylee’s shorts were hanging off her. She looked like she was three yeras old. She was so cute. Marina and Kaylee barely had an ball action . After Kaylee said she was tired, and it was hard but they both felt as if they played good. …………….Jac played after but he was on a team that was much below his skills. Saturday he scored three goals and then ran down the field with his hands out getting approval and kudos from everyone. He is a heartbreaker in waiting. The girls are already flocking. …………..Okay so puppy update, Wills, valentines, and then adios………..Wills is turning in to such a great young man. I really see changes aily and it is amazing and beautiful to see. He was regressing a bit last week but then I attributed it to lack of sleep and I was correct. He is so good with our pup and always honest, kind and caring about the environment and having good morals. Yesterday at the soccer field we were running, Wills and I , with Bailey and he was following us as fast as we ran, staying close by. So cute. I sometimes think he is Molly reincarnated in a different sex. ha ha. ……………..Neil bought us a big nice barbyque and we all had big steaks on it last night. It was a nice family day. I got three bouquets of flowers, which were all beautiful, and lots of Happy valentines wishes-which was nice. Cooked for my parents a big beautiful roast chicen dinner. I love to cook for the ones I love. Hmm I am going to plan a dinner party. My father was talking more and he enjoys the puppy so much that it warms my heart. He even said he will watch him sometimes………….So happy to see my father smiles.

No idea why I tittled this entry that but I was having a flashback from my childhood and its my blog so I can be as creative or silly as I want-right? where do I begin, ? I have had so many moments and things I want to preserve that I don’t know where to start. That is why it is so important for me to do daily blogging. I guess i will start with the main thing that is new in our life-Bailey. Our Multipoo………he is six weeks old and full of life-a little too much. It is like having a new baby as you can see by the circles under my eyes. He likes to play at four or three in the moring. He bites me everywhere, and I mean everywhere ie;my arm pit. He loves to play with my hair and tug at it, so much for no split ends. I need to stop him but he is soooooo cute when he does that. Everyone is in love with him and vica versa. He has brought so much joy and love to our family. The kids are so loving and concerned over him. I can pat myself on the back when I see the areas I done good at. Ha. just trying my improper English-once again Mom don’t worry. Ha. I mean as a mother I , I mean, we are always beating ourselves up and picking the issues our kids will have in therapy at fourteen. I know this to be true. THis is why they call it saythe hardest job to do in the world…..I am noticing that I am relishing in the moment with the kids more due to our new found puppy. I realize how Molly our yorkie was old when they were born and just got older but the bonding happens when one raises a puppy. Now we just have to get him trained. They said last night when I was out, at a networking party (only want to go to friends special events or networking/charity events-no more just hanging at bars at all-done!)
So I told you how much the boys enjoyed dressing up for the dance. Now Wills is all interested in clothes and wants me to take him shopping. I find this so cute and touching and I love to see my kids work things out on their own. This is another good thing about not being to firm, they figure it out from life experiences, which hit harder than Mothers word. When the doggy was humping me, “William said he is humping you.” then Kaylee said,”He is humping you cuz he loves you.” Oh I remember writing about that. Oh well………….
Jac is infatuated with gettting and being fit. He has me feel his muscles all of the time. William is also starting to realize he needs to get fit again. This morning my our temporary family member Wills friend Conner, and the boys were outside doing yoga on a matt, running the stairs and doing push ups and sit ups. So cute……Love my boys. Love my girl. Did I tell you that I bought paintings that say’All you need is love.” Then “Love is all you need.” Put them up on the wall and I love looking at that. We don’t have anything if we don’t have love. That is a thought that goes through my head daily, and how fortunate I am to have so much love in my life and relationships. I am making myself sick with love talk . ha ha. Never.
Kaylee got some lil heels and I think her attitude got bigger with the heals, atleast that is what my friend observed. He might be right. stay tuned.
My trainer had me saying the mantra “High, tight round butt.” He is excited at my progress. I hope I make enough money to stay with him for a while. He is also like a therapist. ha.
Went to magazine launch party last night in a seventeen million dollar home on beach. So beautiful. I had a blast cuz wherever there are interesting people, free food and drink, I am a happy camper. Going to take kids to la jolla to show my daddy the puppy………Enjoy your day

Some people may say I am crazy or we are crazy, and some are wishing us happiness and luck but we got a new puppy. I know I am busy but the kids love it, I can carry it in my gucci purse everywhere. It has already brought us closer nad more of a family.. He is so cute. I felt guilty to our dog that we put to sleep, Molly. It was as if we were cheating on her. I forgot how cute puppies are, how much attention to create (damn) lol, and how much trabajo. (work-see I remember some spanish). I will post pictures of him. The kids named him Bailey. He keeps humping me and Kaylee heard me say that, and then said,”He is humping you cuz he loves you.’ Yep typical male……My friend the dog connosuier told me to get him nutrued cuz that is not normal with a pup that little. Hmm. Maybe it is my sugar perfume.  ha ha. That is a male magnet.Kaylee is sad that the puppy is away from his MOmmy, and cries sometimes. She asked me if I would ever sell her? I said,”No not for all the money in the world.”

 So it is pretty rainy here, and cozy time. I made chile the other day and have that yearning to make comfy foods. Although I am trying to watch what I eat more. I did not do too well, on the weekend, I watched me go out to lunch, dinner, lunch and dinner, oh yea and breakfast. Ha. My parents are coming over to meet Baily aka;our new dog wednesday night for dinner. Last night I took the boys to the sweetheart dance which was so cute. When I go to things like that, I realize how important they are to not miss, although at their school everyday is a special day. It is a great school but seriously always an occasion. Love the teachers there, and the ladies who work there-all except for the parking guy who yells at me sometimes. I sometimes just am in a fog or la la land, and I am holding up traffic. Darn, I hate when I get unconscious. Anyways when Wills was embarassed cuz he was only boy at opera without a suit, that made him take me to buy him a suit. I got one for wills and one for Jac-the whole shabang. They both wore them last night, to the dance. Even though they were the only ones dressed up that much, they caused a commotion. wills was walking around the dance soaking up the compliments, with his hand in his pocket like James Bond or 007 as he called it. It was a crack up to watch the kids dance, and see who gave it all, and shook what their mama gave them, or who was shy, as I would have been. True……That is where we ended up buying a puppy, but now I am too tired to tell that story, so will continue it tomorrow.  Another day and always another story in my life. bon nuit.

Morning. I have decided to go back to church just for the sake of the kids. They need it, as I did as a child, and I can take what I want and leave what I don’t agree on. I always can get something out of it. I feel that my emotions, and feelings, have clarity now and more confidence. I am sure my business is helping me with that. I am also taking this Aztec grain called Milla and frankly I am feeling really balanced. Everyone keeps telling my skin is glowing. I do feel as if I have been away from my kids too much. I need to have a lot of alone time with them. It is mostly for work now as I am growing out of my teens and the need to party late in the night. Finally two years. ha ha. Now I want to write about things but there is a problem with the fact that sometimes the stories I want to write about, may be reading my blog. I only want t write from my life lesson, observation and perspective.
Yesterday my friend Rhonda from the magazine last minute invited me over to their house for a luncheon where there way a wine connoisseur, a chef, as well as an interesting group of intellectual people. The food and company was delicious. I told the ladies, “They know how to live.” I could get use to this.
Then I met my brother for a late lunch at Jakes. It was amazing. WE had a great time, I am going to miss him a lot. UH OH Gotta run to church.

I am laggin this morning. actually not lagging cuz I am being productive from my bed in the my babydoll, ha, but have not gotten t the gym yet. Kaylee is sitting with me, we are eating breakfast and watching guess?? Big suprise Disney. I love this time with my kids-in between typing we chat, kiss cuddle and tell eachother we love one another. Kaylee is in a much better mood since she got sleep last night. It is impossible to deal with a child when they are overtired and I am or vica versa. I am feeling super creative lately. I keep dreaming about ideas. I am going to start my book today, and do some other things to fill my soul up-like read interesting books/mags etc. Jac has soccer but I think or hope it is rained out> ha ha. I don’t like the rain or cold unless I am cozy at home or by someone’s fireplace. William had Conner sleep over and they are making so much noise downstairs. One of the downfalls of a smaller house. My maid is here and helping me organize my kitchen and home, which has been bugging me. I fell in love with two paintings at the coffee shop that say,”All you need is love, and then below,”Love is all you need.” I was destined to have them. That is what it is all about. Forgive me if I blogged about this with my Mommy memory or lack of. I imagine it is only going to happen more as I get older. Damn I should have used non acrylic paint on their hair for crazy hair day, that was a nightmare to get out, but we did. Another one of my famous or stupid last minute solving the situation the Amy way, or lazy way.
I did not get to see my brother last night so we are having a late lunch today early dinner. I have work to do, errands to run, and the gym to go to. My body is sore but feels good to know it is changing and working hard. Last night Michelle and I went to an old local Italian restaurant. We were cracking up. It was like the twilight zone. First this drunk part owner bought us a very expensive, delicious bottle of wine. Then he kept doing magic tricks for us that made no sense whatsoever. There was a strange lady next to us, who kept on staring at us, pointing and talking about us. She walked by me to go to the bathroom and I smiled, then she ignored me, and asked my friend if I was a lesbian. Ha ha. Then the very funny but entertaining piano player came to play. He was singing and staring away at us. THis elderly lady joined him to sing Boccelie. Afterwards I went up to her to give her some love and tell her how great her voice was. I said,’Did you use to be an opera singer?” Well I don’t think she liked that comment because she said,”I still am!” Darn it, I hate when I am trying to be so nice and I don’t phrase something right ..uggghhhhhhh. It gets me in trouble. Thanks Dad for passing that lovely gene on to me.

I am being so bad at bloggin………I am so sorry …………. I am busy visiting all my friends that I have not been giving attention to lately. My father is doing okay. I bought him a snuggly. I never thought I would buy one of those for anyone but my Dad gets cold all of the time. I want to keep him cozy always. I miss my two aunts who died. They were such good souls that I feel their presence as a guardian angels. I am feeling much more stable this week. Last week was a tough week. I also have a lot of things to be excited about or look forward to. I also feel that I have been a good present Mother lately which is so important to me. Last week I went to church with the kids because William wanted me to so badly, and the message is “It is never too late.” I feel bad for some of my times not being in moment with my kids with all my drama occuring over the past few years…..so I am taking what he said t heart and I keep repeating that to myself daily.Happiest time is savoring the moment and the little things. Man I sound like a Hallmark card. That would actually be a good job for me with all my sentimentality. I love all the mushy songs about the fragility of life. My therapist say’s I am afraid of dying and missing out on something In life, so I want to experience every minute and everything. I guess not bad if I have down time, clear thoughts and balance. Enough about me. Ha ha. seriously I was watching a comedian at a dinner party and he was showing how some people always have to top others stories….and it was a bit of a frightening mirror for me. I guess that it is good to be aware but I get on stage fast…….prob. to fast.
So quick week rundown. Kaylee and I have been having a lot of talks about her body as a temple and respectig it, ie; not dancing like Britney Spears. She has had attitude lately and I don’t like it. I told her she needs a attitude adjustment. Ha. She told me she is crushin on William’s friend a bit. Oh dear….once again that damn apple falling close to the tree in m family. Jac got picked for A team soccer out of forty kids, he is so happy. Today was crazy hair day for my kids and I was so proud to paint their hair and put it all up in ponytails. I could tell the kids were excited. William told me he understands three things to never say to a woman one-critisize her style, two-say she looks older, or three-notice she has gained weight…..ha ha. He is smart.
Getting in to getting in to bettershape and loving it.Time t lose my poochy. Getting a lot of comments that feels good. Getting freebees which is always nice. So I will blog again tomorrow. Having dinner with my brother who is leaving town. I love ou Peter and will miss u. Night Chippie!!

I am sorry that I have not blogged but you know me and computers and techology do not get along…………….much to my dismay. ha. not really…except i can’t write my thoughts when they want to get out. Tonight I am tired and with my kids which is going to keep it brief so that turns me to my funniest child…………Kayleee. I believe I told you about her and the teacher getting prettier as she knows her, and then her saying that mean girls at school get less pretty but then yesterday she told me she helped a friend with her friend at school with her anger management issues. I said<”Did the teacher help you.” She said,”no, I just told her that life is short, be nice and kind because u will get further with that than anything.”           how fricken cute………….not sure whether to take credit in that or give it To Disney…….but will take in anyways. So to you and all you critical moms that try and do things perfect and raise kids as stepford kids…………love them, let them Be. ha………….and aid their strengths………….Its all about love for yourself and love for others…………………oh by the way Jac made the A team at soccer and he was their favorite out of all contestants………………so happy for him and his Coach, Daddy…………….My little sweet loving easy going baby……..xo