light at the end of the tunnel

by Amy Cubbison on June 24th, 2009

I AM JUST GOING TO USE CAPS SINCE MY KIDS SPILLED JUICE/SODA IN MY KEYBOARD SO IT IS SO DIFFICULT TO PRESS THE SHIFT KEY. ANYWAYS KIDS JUST DESTROY THINGS AND THE HOUSE AND THAT IS PART OF THE DEAL. IT IS FUNNY AS MUCH AS I LOVE MY KIDS I KEEP HAVING DREAMS WHERE I AM AWAY FROM THEM AND NOT MISSING THEM, AND IT FEELS REALLY GREAT. I AM USUALLY THE MOTHER THAT MISSES THEM TERRIBLY AND WANTS TO COME HOME EARLY. SEE I TORMENT MYSELF JUST LIKE WILLS BUT I AM WORKING ON IT.
SOME FUN THINGS TO SAY, SOME SAD THINGS TO SAY AND SO I WILL BEFORE I PART TO MY OTHER THERAPY SESSION-THE GYM!!
WILLS IS VERY UPSET BECAUSE OF NEIL’S CELIACS DISEASE, US SELLING OUR HOME, AND ME GOING BACK EAST. I FEEL AS IF I AM ABANDONING HIM BUT MY THERAPIST TOLD ME THAT IT WOULD BE GOOD FOR THE BOYS TO HAVE TIME TOGETHER, ME TIME WITH MY FAMILY BACK EAST AND KAYLEE. WILLS IS SO ATTACHED TO ME, HE NEEDS TO LEARN TO GET STRONGER ON HIS OWN WITH MY GUIDANCE. I FEEL SO MUCH FOR WILLS THAT I NEED TO GET STRONGER FOR HIM TO BE SUPPORTIVE OF HIM BUT NOT CODDLE HIM. ANYWAYS IF HE MISSES ME A LOT MAYBE WE WILL FLY HIM BACK. I DO TRULY FEEL LIKE I NEED A VACATION FROM HIM AS WELL. SUCH AN AMAZING KID BUT SO HIGH MAINTENANCE AND DRAINING. YESTERDAY I HAD LUNCH WITH MY FRIEND MICHELLE WITH KIDS. SHE IS SUCH AN AMAZING GREAT GIRL. WE ARE VERY SIMILIAR HA.DID YOU CATCH THAT? OKAY I WILL JUST KEEP IT ABOUT HER. AS YOU KNOW TODAY I MAY FEEL AMAZING AND GOOD BUT THAT IS ALL CONDITIONAL AND FLUCTUATING. ANYWAYS IT IS NICE TO HAVE A FRIEND THAT COVERS ALL AREAS OF WHAT IS IMPORTANT TO ME. SHE ALSO HAS A SON THAT IS VERY HIGH MAINTENANCE LIKE WILLS SO WE CAN RELATE ON THAT LEVEL. THAT IS VERY IMPORTANT TO TALK TO SOMEONE WHO UNDERSTANDS.

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